PS 51:12

"Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and make me willing to obey you."

That's pretty much what i've been thinking about all day. Read/Prayed it this morning before heading off to the office (ON MY WEEK OFF) to go over my annual review - no big deal (the review, not the verse; the verse IS a big deal).

God, make me happy that i'm a Christian. Even if it IS a shame that we have to pray that in the beginning . . . it's a good prayer to pray. i'm sick of the view that being a Christian is tragic. i DO believe that Christians have ruined Christianity for the real world . . . that's why i just want to bring Jesus . . . everything else will fall into place.

Make me willing to obey you. That's a VERY important realization. There's something in us that makes us want to rely on God for everything . . . but at some point WE have to DO something. We have a role too. We have to show God that we love him. We can't expect HIM to do the work that WE signed up to do.

Good verse.

Other news includes: Looks like the marriage will be what brings us together in MARCH of 2005 - those are the most fluid concrete plans you will ever read; Apartment is shaping up nicely - i actually slept on MY OWN bed (instead of a futon) for the first time in 2 years; met some cool people tonight (Frank/Krista) and will probably be playing a bass gig with them soon (October); Kristy and i own two bar stools (black legs with wooden seat, and read seat cushions); i have four gold fish.

Grace to all - i think I may start getting deep in these again. Just a warning.